No Matter What, I’m Gonna Praise You
“Expect the Worst, and Pray for the Best.” Um, not really possible!
February 24, 2015
It Looks Like This Is Happening…Now.
March 1, 2015
Well, I have had a wonderful week with my mom! She has been so helpful. For those of you who know her, you know she has more energy than most kids! Her willingness to help, drive, and go above and beyond for anything amazes me. I did not get the energy gene from her, but boy am I glad to have her.
We got a lot done in preparing for our baby’s birth while she has been with me, and then we went to Disney World yesterday! We had a blast! As any of you know who have been to Disney, it is a fast and furious kind of trip, especially in one day! We were exhausted by the end of the day, but we had a blast.
I really hate we missed all of the excitement with the snow day! We had our own snow day at Disney’s Frozen show!
We had a magical time:)
To see all those kids at Disney World and to know that God is entrusting me with one of these little souls- it’s almost too much to comprehend. I can feel myself getting excited, scared, giddy, fearful- the whole range of emotions.
I’m expectant and excited, but I think that this week, for the first week in a while throughout the adoption process, I have realized what all could happen. We truly believe that this is our baby, but we know our birth mother could change her mind. And of course that is scary.
So, I think a part of myself is not allowing my whole self to take in all of the exciting emotions, knowing that is hanging out there- pray for me please, you guys!
I just keep thinking, and I genuinely mean it- No matter what happens, I am going to trust God.
I remember early on in my cancer journey when I was having all of my base-level scans done. I remember telling God, “No matter what these scans say, I am going to praise you and I am going to trust you.”
I look back, and think, “Why did I say that?!?” But it’s true when I get to the core of my beliefs. No matter what, I will trust Him. I will believe for the best and pray for the best. But no matter what, He is sovereign, and I am praying for His plan to win out.
This song written several years ago came on the radio today on my way back to our Florida home after dropping my mom at the airport. I’ve sung it hundreds of times, I’m sure, but these words really sunk in:
Kerri Roberts: “No Matter What”
I’m runnin’ back to Your promises one more time
Lord, that’s all I can hold onto
I’ve got to say this has taken me by surprise
But nothing surprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep askin’ why
I keep askin’ why
No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what, I’m gonna need You
I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
No matter what
No matter what
When I’m stuck in this nothingness by myself
I’m just sitting in silence
There’s no way I can make it without Your help
I won’t even try it
I know You have Your reasons for everything
So I will keep believin’
Whatever I might be feelin’, that You are my hope
And You’ll be my strength
No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what, I’m gonna need You
I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
No matter what
No matter what
Anything I don’t have, You can give it to me
But it’s okay if You don’t
I’m not here for those things, the touch of Your love
Is enough on its own
But no matter what, I still love you
And I’m gonna need you
No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what, I’m gonna need You
I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
No matter what
No matter what
As I look back over my cancer journey, over my infertility journey, over our adoption journey—Once I got to the point of just saying “no matter what” (which in some cases took longer than others), God answered a prayer in a way that was much better than I ever could have. But when I was so focused on “my” way, things seemed to progress slower or not happen.
Of course, this is just from my observation and situation, but I just want to continue trusting that God is sovereign. He is worthy of praise and everything has to go through Him before it comes to me. That brings me peace.
So, while I wait on this precious baby girl, I am praising Him and encourage you to praise Him and trust Him for what you are praying for, no matter what.
Will you consider surrendering your will and way to the Father’s?
It is way better than our will anyway. God has proven that to me over and over.
Praising Him no matter what,
Aly
5 Comments
Praying (and excited) for you and Josh!
You always inspire me!! Praying!!
I am praying for you and Josh! Becoming a parent is the biggest and most exciting change and challenge in life! God will equip you and lift you up through all the steps. I truly believe I have children so I could experience a glimpse of the love Christ has for us! May God bless you on this amazing(nothing less) journey! ~ Casey DeSalvo
I can relate to your philosophy of “no matter what, I’m gonna praise you.” I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at the age of 30, and one of the very first questions my neurologists had for us was if we planned on having children. Well, of course, I wanted children, but MS could’ve easily changed “my” plan. However, we were quite surprised 9 months later to discover that I was 11 weeks pregnant with our miracle baby, who was born on our 5th wedding anniversary. Of course, in the midst of all this, my best friend and her husband were battling infertility. Don’t worry though, they also had a happy ending. Ironically, the adoption of their son was legalized today. So, I will trust Him and all of His plans.
praying for you andJosh,I know you are going to be great parents.