She’s Here and We are Struggling

I’m sure most of you have heard by now, but our baby has been born! She was born on March 12th at 10:53 pm. She weighed 6 pounds 13 ounces, and was 19.3 inches long. Perfect in every way. Seriously.

The last 3 days have been an absolute roller coaster. The birth mother began majorly wavering in her decision to place her baby for adoption. She continues to say that the best thing is for the baby to be with us, but she has not made up her mind.

Our case is complicated and out of the norm for many reasons, but tomorrow (Monday) a decision will be made. We have been able to stay with the baby at the hospital while the birth mother has been discharged. We have completely fallen in love with this baby girl and our hearts are breaking at the thought of her not being ours.

Please pray the birth mother feels loved and reassured and that she will be given an unshakeable confidence in whatever decision she makes.

A decision will be forced by the court tomorrow.

Please cry out to God on this baby’s behalf. As Josh and I were discussing God’s will concerning this situation, we realize that it might not be God’s will for her to be ours. I can’t even imagine that being true, but it is a possibility.

But here’s the thing- this little life is worth fighting for. We know we are to take care of the orphans and the defenseless. So even if it’s not God’s will, we are still called to care for the helpless. So, that is where I really struggle thinking that this might not be His will. I don’t understand how it couldn’t be…Just being real…

“He ensures that orphans and widows receive justice. He shows love to the foreigners living among you and gives them food and clothing.” Deuteronomy 10:18

“Defend the poor and fatherless: do justice to the afflicted and needy. Deliver the poor and needy: rid them out of the hand of the wicked.” Though this seems to be directed at other gods, it is good advice for humans as well. Psalms 82:3-4

I know He knew this was going to happen once we were matched in December. I know He is God and I am not. But this is hard. This is terrible.

Even when we know God is working, that doesn’t mean that we aren’t miserable waiting. We’re human.

We have moments of devastation and then moments of hope and that cycle has continued over and over the past 3 days.

Please continue lifting us up. We are praying and believing we will be leaving the hospital tomorrow with our baby girl. She is amazing in every way. But we are trusting God for her life, either way. Please pray for the precious birth mom.

Humbled and depending on your prayers,

Aly

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27 thoughts on “She’s Here and We are Struggling

  1. Praying for all of you…praying peace for this birth mama and for you. Hold that baby tight, believing this is God’s gift to you. We love y’all.

  2. I keep praying, “we trust Him fully” and believe this baby will be yours. Sarah was barren and couldn’t fathom bearing a child, but God provided. Then God told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac… he too couldn’t fathom how it was earthly possible to have offspring that would number the stars in the sky, and be the father of nations, if his son was killed…God provided. And you know personally that He provides even when the situation seems desperate and unfathomable of a desired outcome….He will provide!

  3. My dear sweet friends, I covet you in this prayer:

    I am no longer my own, but thine.
    Put me to what thou wilt, rank me with whom thou wilt.
    Put me to doing, put me to suffering.
    Let me be employed for thee or laid aside for thee,
    exalted for thee or brought low for thee.
    Let me be full, let me be empty.
    Let me have all things, let me have nothing.
    I freely and heartily yield all things to thy pleasure and disposal.
    And now, O glorious and blessed God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit,
    thou art mine, and I am thine.
    So be it.
    And the covenant which I have made on earth,
    let it be ratified in heaven.
    Amen.

    I am lifting you all up, as this day will forever be etched in your minds either way it goes! Dear Lord, please hear the cry of the Taylors, the young mother and the sweet, wonderful blessing you have bestowed upon them. They seek Your Comfort and Understanding. In Your Holy Name I pray, Amen.

    Love and Light,
    Kelley Wood

  4. I have been praying for you all and birth mother for as much as I want this baby to be your little girl I also think of how you all have share God love and your strength and truth in God and stand strong on gods word what a wonderful gift that is for all to seen still praying gods will love you both and walk by faith and know God is in control

  5. Aly,
    Our hearts are breaking for you , Josh, and this sweet baby. Praying that God’s good and perfect will is for you to bring her home, and if not, that he gives you such clarity and peace in the outcome. God is good! He loves you! He IS faithful! Until the answer is given, I pray believing your prayers will be a resounding “Yes and Amen”!! I also want to pray that the love of Jesus modeled by you two around this mom changes her for eternity.

  6. Am praying for you. We were in the same position 26 years ago. Let just say, that what God has ordained, He will bring it to pass. You want the baby that God has chosen for you. From one who has stood where you are, I am praying that God’s perfect will be done for the baby and for the two of you. Up in Heaven, God has a book of families . Than family is Josh and Aly and baby ………… You want the child of promise not just any baby will do. I am praying that God’s absolute perfect will be done. I have followed your course all along and prayed for you every step of the way. Up in Heaven God has a book of family’s and He will get those families together on this earth!!!

  7. I know this time is so hard and confusing. We went through the very same thing with our adoption. Stay strong and know that whatever road you are forced to travel, if you keep your eyes on the Lord, it is the road that was meant for you and it will ultimately lead to peace and fulfillment. Stay strong and know that I am praying for you fervently and your birth mom. God bless you all!! Keep the faith!

  8. I am Praying, crying out to God and believing in His goodness. May you feel God’s arms wrapped around you all and may God fill your hearts, and your birth mother’s heart with a peace beyond y’alls understanding. God’s will is perfect, sometimes it is easy and fun and sometimes it’s hard to swallow. Praying comfort and peace for all of you. God be with each and every one of you.

  9. We will be deeply in prayer that God will give you the desire of your heart and a peace that passes understanding!! You two are a tremendous blessing to so many. Be strong in the Lord!

  10. Couldn’t wait to check for an email from you guys to see if there was news this morning. Paula A, Paula R, Lu Ann B, and I (as well as all our families) are praying throughout this ordeal you’re going through. We love you guys and will be standing in the gap for you and baby Genevieve.

  11. Prayers lifted up for this baby to go to your loving God filled home. Faith can move mountains and prayers will be heard. I claim this victory for you in Jesus name.

  12. I have followed your steps through this and rejoiced with you. I have cried many tears for you because I know the heart of two mothers whom are anguishing and the heart of a daddy as he stands by helpless to fix it. But hope is in the Father who stands with his arms wrapped tightly around you saying “Trust Me! I’ve Got this and you (all three) where I want you!” I will rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep.

  13. He who is faithful in little will be faithful in much, Taylors! You keep holding onto His garment and the whole hospital will hear of your great testimony and faith. So many people are watching your struggle and I pray God will encourage you with the fruit. Praying for your total comfort and peace, and for the right decisions to be made by all. It’s a big step for you to resolve yourselves to His will and that might be exactly what He’s been waiting on. But if not, His plan is the best and we will all rejoice when that plan is revealed!
    Philemon 1:6-7
    “I pray that the fellowship of your faith may become effective through the knowledge of every good thing which is in you for Christ’s sake. For I have come to have much joy and comfort in your love, because the hearts of the saints have been refreshed through you, brother.”

  14. I am praying for a wonderful outcome for both of you and this sweet baby.
    God Bless You!

  15. As an adoptive mother, I truly know how you are feeling right now. God has the perfect plan for you! Yall’s strength and faith is amazing and he is carrying you right now through these steps. I am praying for yall.

  16. Praying for this birth mom, the baby, you and Josh and stand believing for God’s perfect will in this situation. I do not believe He has brought you this far to let you down, but you are both Mighty warriors in His Kingdom and whatever He brings to pass, I know you will continue to follow!! Trusting and Believing with you and for you!!! Much love!

  17. Waiting…..watching……trusting in Him…..weeping and praying. You and Josh are a true testimony and a light shining bright right where you are. God is with you every step of the way no matter what the outcome. I am believing that this baby will come home with you.

  18. Speaking from exsperince Aly. We adopted 2 precious boys years ago. We were up against an ordeal where we may have not gotten them but God assured me He didnt need anything but our faith for His will to go through. Praying and believing with yall!

  19. Been praying for you all since I read this post yesterday. I only know you through your blogs, which helped me through my breast cancer journey. So thankful to you for sharing your story. -Denise

  20. So glad to hear your wonderful news!! God is so good! Enjoy that special blessing from above!!

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