Dear Vera, You’re Two Months Old

Dear Vera,

You are two months old! I can hardly believe it. You have rocked our world, in the best way possible. Before you got here, I just could not wrap my mind around bringing another baby into our family. How would you fit? What would you be like? Would you be like your older sister, or completely different?

I had so many questions and so many unknowns, and I do not like the unknowns. God apparently likes giving them to me:) Sometime he forces me to have faith!

But now I KNOW you.

I know your smells. The good baby smells and the not so good:)

I know how you love to be held. All.the.time.

I know how you love the TV.

I know how you LOVE to be talked to.

I know how you love to talk to me.

I know you are so full of JOY! Your smiles literally make my days.

I know how you don’t like your paci unless I am holding you a certain way with it up against me.

I know that you are so alert!

I know that you LOVE your bottles.

I know that you burp so loudly, and you make me laugh every time you do it.

I know that when you smile, your literal entire face smiles.

See all of these things I KNOW about you now? I was just so ready to know you, sweet girl.

Oh, I love you so much I can’t even stand it.

As much as I loved having you grow in my belly after I was told it was impossible, knowing you and learning you outside of me has been so much more amazing. I never went through pregnancy, labor, delivery, hormonal changes, body changes and everything else that comes with pregnancy– before you. This was new to me, and what an incredible journey it has been.

Even after carrying you and loving you since we knew you were in my belly, there was still so much I didn’t know about you, just like your sisters.

Discovering who you are and getting to wake you up, change your diapers, feed you, talk to you, hold you, love on you, sing to you, and the privilege to clean your spit up and poop (yes, even that although it pains me to write) is one of the greatest joys of my life.

If the first two months of your life are any indication of what’s to come, I know there is seriously no other mom more blessed than me!

You are a treasure and I thank God for you every day.

I love you forever,

Mommy